I read D&C 50:40-42 lately and rewrote it to personalize it to myself.
"I am a little child and I can't bear all things now; I must grow in grace and in the knowledge of the truth...Fear not, little child, for I am His and He has overcome the world...and none of us, that the Father hath given to Christ, shall be lost."
I can find strength in this scripture because when I am discouraged I must remember NOT to try to bear everything all at once. I must give myself the time and patience I deserve to grow.
I keep having to learn the same lessons over and over again and I get tired.
I want to be able to live joyfully from day to day, doing my mediocre tasks happily and spending worthwhile time with my children. Far too often my kids seem to be wasting away their time while I am elsewhere wasting away mine. I want to be the kind of mom that cherishes every moment and takes advantage of it because I know it passes far too quickly. But I'm tired. Moments pass and I don't cherish them. I don't hold my kids close enough. I can't hold them close enough to stop time. I can't, and they wouldn't appreciate it if I tried.
I want to be a different kind of mom. But I'm only me. And so I must look to God to build up the best of "me" there is and add to it. Otherwise I truly feel I will fail. So, Lord, help me.