For Christmas I got a couple books and so today I began reading a book by Holley Gerth called You're Already Amazing. It's been quite refreshingly inspiring for me to begin reading a book like this. I should read more books like this.
Anyway, so far the part that really caught my eye today was a section called "Most People Don't". She gives examples of the kind of self-talk that can be destructive. When we sit and think about how most people don't do what we are doing...like sitting in front of a computer screen writing for hours on end. Then it becomes things like "What's the matter with you? Why can't you be more like most people?"
"Most people don't...wear themselves out in the kitchen because they believe a meal feeds hearts and fills bellies. Most people don't...throw off their entire schedule because they take time to listen to the stranger in the grocery store who's having a hard day....
...It's true. Most people don't do what you do, love what you love, feel the kind of passion you feel about that thing. I started thinking about this recently and I realized we're in pretty good company if we feel like we're not like most people. After all:
Most people don't build an ark.
Most people don't lead people through the desert to the Promised Land.
Most people don't die on a cross to save the world.
But aren't we glad one person did each of these things?
If most people don't do what you do, and you're passionately pursuing Jesus with your life, then it's probably not just a human plan. The heartbeat of God is probably somewhere within it. We need you, just you, to fulfill that purpose, complete that project, bring that gift to the world in a way no one else can.
Most people don't...but you do."
This really struck me. Because I am constantly giving myself crap about the way I spend my time. I try to do what I need to do and not just what I want to do because everybody needs priorities. But my leisure time is always questioned in my mind. "Is this important enough?" or "Does any other mother do this in their spare time?"
My sister said something over Thanksgiving that I keep reminding myself too.
"Don't should'a on yourself."
Meaning, don't ever look back with regrets, but instead, think forward. I'm trying my best to do just that. Because what I'm doing is good enough.
I don't have to do more to be good enough. I don't have to do more to be loved. I am already. I really am amazing already.
"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but aChrist bliveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the cfaith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20